The beauty

There's no way for me to tell this story (even for my own memory/journal) without explaining the beauty too.

I have chosen to surround myself with amazing people, and I knew that before I was diagnosed with cancer.  I have friends that I haven't seen for years and years, but we've stayed in each others lives because there is a deep connection.  I have a relationship with my family that has always been close and even envied by friends.  I have co-workers and a boss that are going to be with me and flexible through this entire journey.  My friends are unbelievable. And I'm in love with my neighbors.

The amount of support I've received is too much to list.  And it's not the list that matters, it's the people.  Once I got through the initial hyperventilating and crying over the scariness of this disease, it's the kindness of people that continually bring me to tears.  It's not just my friends and family - it's friends of friends, moms of friends, neighbors of friends, and even a complete stranger that is allowing me to text her constantly with questions, since she's my age and just went through this. 

Even Scott and I are growing in a way that may only be possible when you go through a tragedy.  We stop and hug more, we fall asleep holding hands.  He's stepping up with the kids when I can't focus, and he's providing a sense of normalcy in the house that I'm simply not able to provide right now.  I am still doing all of the laundry though.  :)